Dear Linz,
Happy 25th Birthday!
We ate cake in honor of you.
Then I watched the video of your life, the one we put together for your funeral.
It made me cry and for a second a wave of intense sadness, grief I haven't felt in a long time, washed over me.
But that's a good thing. If it didn't hurt my heart then I'd know I was seriously broken.
Sometimes I wonder, about being broken that is.
Some days I feel like I should be crying, that I must be broken because I'm not crying. I feel like it is too easy to quickly shove certain thoughts out of my head before they break me.
Some days I let those thoughts into my head and I'm surprised to find they don't break me. Mom always taught us the sun always comes up, and Mom is always right.
Thanks for giving me an excuse to eat chocolate cake, but next time I'm making cheesecake!
love,
mel
Good for you Mel. Glad you went ahead with it.
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday.
I always do something to celebrate my brother's birthday. Cake is good! I thought about your sister just the other day. :)
ReplyDeleteYou are an amazing women! You and your family hold such a sweet place in my families hearts.
ReplyDeleteIt's about time Fuss Pots got a new nickname. I personally really like the nickname "the Landonator"
It's just cool!
my nephews used to try to sing happy birthday to my dad loud enough for it to reach heaven!!!
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